This is not about being a Nerd.
This is about being Bullied and Intimidated.
That is the way I read your post.
When you are at school or work,
You can be and have been hurt.
You had One safe place.
Where you were understood and treated well.
People that have hurt and frightened you showed up.
That! Is Fucking! Horrible! I am so sorry.
These are the exact same people that Bullied you in the Past?
argh.. I have no idea how to contend with the problem you have.
Other Posters here may very well have better answers than I do.
If you had Three Larger Older Brothers, we would not be having this conversation.
I know what it is like to have one's heart sink when a person walks into the room.
or; When required to walk into a room with a Problem.
I know it is possible to gain or regain a fearlessness.
It is Not possible to do that all on your own.
That is not about Nerd.
That is about Bullying.
Some people want to know what you did to deserve being Bullied.
You and I know, if it were not you, it would be someone else.
My guess is;
It, just, happened to be you.
It is So hard to stand up to Bullies.
I think it is a good idea for people that are not the Target to speak up.
That is Hard, too.
Bullies can change Targets, fast.
I am so sorry.
(fuck) The world starts to look very very small.
Does it not?
I'd go there with you.
Then we would be an InGroup.
They would be an OutGroup.
We could play that Game until they lost the ability to read.
Have you ever read In-Group/Out-Group dynamics?
That is Basic Stuff.http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ingroups_and_outgroups
some more of the Same.
Will reading that stuff help?
It will let you know, you are part of an In-Group.
They make you feel like The Out-Group.
That is a very painful thing to do to a Human Being.
The way we are HardWired does not allow us to Thrive under such conditions.
You have both a right and a responsibility to Make a Change.
How? You must get the assistance of Other Real Humans.
Who do you have to turn to?
If you were within several hundred miles of me,
I'd give it a Go.
I might not fix anything.
Almost nothing would be The Same.
Think about it.
How funny would That Be?
I'd do it in a Flash.
I might piss off your little Not Friends.
We would need a Plan B.
Run? No way.
We need a Taxi waiting.
Walk with a Steady Gate.
Keep your eyes forward.
I will insult them and be right behind you.
All you need is a bunch of Big Brothers.
Where are you going to get That?
Tell your Mom what a disappointment she is.
You need Brothers! What did she give you?
Life is, just, an exchange of electrons; It is up to us to give it meaning.
We are all in The Gutter.
Some of us see The Gutter.
Some of us see The Stars.
by mr. Oscar Wilde.
Those that want to Know; Know.
Those that do not Know; Don't tell them.
They do terrible things to people that Tell Them.