It is still really hard talking about being transsexual. I have so many doubts, and while I'd like to be able to give a definite "Yes I want a sex change, I am a girl." I can't say that in good conscience. I feel llike that sometimes, but my feelings shift around alot. Sometimes it feels like all of this is made up as just another fantasy, or like something I'm trying to make myself believe, and other times I'll just wish I already sounded and looked like the girl I am. I know it can't help her deal with this while I'm only really able to answer questions with stuff like "Well, I'm pretty sure about this. I can't say for certain, but I'd like to look into this more and try to find more about how I feel about this." It also makes me feel bad that my mom stresses about this alot, while I, as a generally indifferent person, am not very stressed about this. I wish I could just get her to not worry so much, but I really don't want to say that I think this isn't a big deal, because it kind of is, and I've been glad she's been my impetus to keep moving forward, because on my own I am very good at losing motivation to continue things.
(Little rant about how I wish I wasn't so worried/nervous/awkward and was more confident):
And as a celebratory note: Congratulations on your operation Jessica! (I know it's late, but I've just been in a lurking mood for a while.)